Oh, life’s tribulations.

I am always too lazy to pen down my thoughts. They always seem to float around like wispy clouds in the sky. Sometimes they happen all too suddenly and spontaneously that I can’t get hold of them, like now.

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came across someone elses blog. http://cyt.2666.blog.163.com/

thanks. i find it meaningful.

明天是奶奶逝世七周年的忌日。农历四月初八这个日子我这辈子也忘不了，七年前的四月初八您离开了我们。

每次经过奶奶住过的空荡荡的房间，眼前会浮现您的身影，您的音容笑貌，真希望您还活着。当我默默告诉自己，人一辈子都有走上黄泉路这一回，只是迟早的问题，可还是忍不住的伤心难过，这是长这么大第一次经历身边的亲人离去。

小时候奶奶为了我没少挨婶婶的骂，我和大我一个月的堂姐都是您一手带大，可是我小时候很粘人总是吵着您抱我背我，堂姐比较乖常常自己一个玩，可是婶婶每次看见就骂您偏心重男轻女。奶奶对不起为了我害您被婶婶不凉解。

我大一点能懂事的时候, 夏天的您坐在摇椅上，轻轻的抱着堂弟，轻轻地拍着他的背，看见似乎 已经睡着的我，睁着眼睛，不吵闹，说我很乖，会奖我糖果吃，我一脸的渴盼，您一脸的慈祥。在我上小学的时候还想起您站在那窄小的路口，撑着伞，已经渐显老 态的身子在风雨中很是稳固，仿佛是这世界最伟大的依靠。我看见了您，您还没看见我，我向您奔去，您担心的小跑，然后，抚摸我的头 ，问我饿不饿，我大声的回答，饿死了，您拉着我回家，给我换衣服，给我擦干头发，给我舀起热腾腾的饭菜。还想起我向您要钱时您一脸的心疼，开玩笑说，以后 你得养我才行，这么小就花了那么多钱，我当时很骄傲的说，以后我养您，那时我十岁。那时还以为您还会陪我很长很长的路，您还会一直抚摸我的头，我们还在一 起很长很长的时间，～～～～～～以为至少我可以养你，换您一脸欣慰。可是您已经不在了，我那个骄傲的誓言还没有来得及履行，您就已经不在了 。也许，下辈子，我可以还您。
在您临终前几天，您把我叫到床前，叫我把您放在床上的箱子拿下来打开它，您从里面拿出一个小盒子，您把里面您 一生的积蓄二千多块钱塞到我的手上，说“奶奶可能不行了，看不到你娶妻生子，不能帮你带小孩了，这点钱给你以后结婚用。”我泪流满面对奶奶说“奶奶您是个 好人，好人有好报，您会长命百岁，您还要看我娶妻生子，还要帮我带小孩呢。”没过几天，我会永远记住这个日子，四月初八凌晨一点多，我见过奶奶最后一面， 但是您已经失去意识，不认识我了，我握住您的手，有些冰冷，您还问我是谁，我觉得很心痛。整夜无法入眠，没想到很快几个小时过去，噩耗就传来，我哭得像个 泪人，最疼我的奶奶离开了我们．在出殡那天大家怕我太伤心受不了，不让我送奶奶去火葬场，成了我最大的遗憾．

我相信有天堂，我相信奶奶您在另一个世界会活得好好的，您会看着我的，只是，您不让我们看见而已，对吗？

奶奶，您在另一个世界过得好吗？奶奶，您的孙子想念您。

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One thing I’ve always remembered about my primary school was my CCA -Chinese Orchestra.

throughout the 6 years then we’ve studied in 3 campuses – my batch mates will know this, ^^
remember “campus2”, the first, run-down campus? Though its now converted into a student’s hostel (im against it, no offence), I am thankful that it isnt demolished or whatever. At least its a physical part of my memory. we’ve had CO camps in that shabby place, but I loved the feeling. Afterall, I completed P1 & 2 there lol.

I can remember the chalkboard and the dust and the curly-haired teacher banging the blackboard making screeching noises. Familiar recess bell through the PA system then some eye massage thingy (i duno, the school insisted that its good then), but before that is a mad rush to the playground or having a nice bowl of laksa. We’re all supposed to pick a CCA. The first instrument I touched was an Erhu, but then I lacked talent in it (anyone can tell that from the noise my instrument produces) so I wanted to transfer to another.

Then we progressed through the years. P3 was afternoon lessons in “campus1”. (School policy, P3&5 lesson time 1-6pm, it being a necessity due to lack of space to hold all students). Always rushed homework in the morning before school starts. And its usually PE at the end of the day. Glorious evening lol. Usually its soccer or hula hoop or relays. I think its during this year that Nanyang CO got to go to Genting Highlands for some performance.

P6. New campus lol. We moved in halfway through P5 (year 2003). Before that we’re all getting excited about the campus and sometimes when the construction workers forget to close the metal door boliao kids like us can peek through.

Now Nanyang has got a CO room specially reserved for the orchestra and there’s lots of new facilities, and the kids are really the privileged lot.  The above are my memories and no matter how I share them, they can never be part of anyone else (vice versa). I guess its still up to us seniors (at least to the kids) to create memorable events for the kids so that they enjoy their days in Nanyang. And maybe blog about it years later and pass it on.

I really appreciate the strong alumni system in Nanyang as well as in HCJC. Maybe its because I want to stay in contact with others after we graduate. Like for example, last year, CO ex-members, including those already working/married, came to our annual potluck dinner during the CO Camp. and talked crap. but at least their still in touch.

Surfed the web recently and found a Hwachong unofficial website. Lots of posts from ex-pupils even though they graduated 20 years ago. simple but meaningful. talked about their experiences/ ghost stories/ lessons of their days in HC. I think this should be the way.

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Whenever it rained in the old campus the drains will be flooded. So we used to pluck leaves and shape them into little boats then put them into the rushing waters and maybe compete with each other’s boats to see whose will reach the end first. Ok, sounds lame and why did i enjoy doing that last time? Seriously I don’t know.

But then I feel that people these days don’t look at the surroundings and enjoy the beauty in nature. And also to find joy in doing even the most stupid things, no matter now insignificant they are.

Here’s wishing everyone happy holidays.

National Day

Finally the national day celebrations!

and a well deserved break too;

Sometimes I find it weird that im not looking as forward to the parade as much as I used to be back then.

What’s national day? Extra time for sleeping.

I remember the music lessons in primary school – clap hands, do-re-mi-fa-so-la-ti-do, sing songs like Voices from the Heart, Di Tanjong Katong (rings a bell right?) while our dear teacher will play the piano. lol!

Oh and she had curly hair too. but that was 8 years ago.

Chanced upon this ndp website, what’s most memorable was the archive of ndp songs. (http://www.ndp.org.sg/downloads/audio/pastyear.php)

Actually I do agree with most people that ndp songs worsen every passing year. but that’s because the focus changes. The old songs sound good ok. =D

As I am listening to them now, there’s this nostalgic feeling deep inside. lolz.

Count on me, Singapore. Di Tanjongz Katongz

Racial Harmony Day

Haha, life is so weird

Firstly, I forgot today was Racial Harmony Day. Stepped into class in my full uniform, HC badge and a schoolbag, then realised.

Cultural sabbatical, Malay Traditional Music. The 2 instructors are really good =]

We fiddled around with the malay drum, drums again, guitar, and the gong. Then they sang and performed songs. cool.

On a side note, quite a while have passed but im still disappointed over pday’s results. Most of us didnt even get into the Finals yet im pretty sure all of us put in the effort.

I got a C.

“C for Champions”

thursday

Thursday, today was.

Pulled myself to school, almost late as usual.

Sometimes I wonder what I am doing in school lol. Just sitting at the back of the class looking nerdy and doing nothing. Maybe its just me.

Oh ya, for music appreciation today, its 4M’s class performance. One of the best performances i’ve seen in assembly, it was beautiful. Then there was a video of a 5-year old girl, blind at birth, playing the piano. All at correct pitch too, and she cant even see the score, all from the ears.

It wasn’t easy, the melody and the accompaniment – she included both.  Honestly the scene is very touching. i think its on youtube.

Not to mention she was cute.

Haiz, i want to learn the guitar. Really.

搞笑至尊

哈哈,搞笑至尊

today

Week 2, Friday.

Today was great. Some setbacks along the way but its really the positive portions that made my day.

An EP3 day, Friday was. Almost fell asleep during lessons today, no offense to teachers. Mainly its bcos i didnt sleep much this week. Well, there’s 2 tests this week, Physics and Biology. I am not complaining since its mainly a revision of the sec3 topics, but if its going to be a killer paper, then I think we should just embrace the results and work better next time.

Playing chaptek is fun. It tests your reflex and accuracy, maybe that explains why I keep missing the flying feathery thing.

i love chaptek

Anyway, today’s a little different. Dahwei came in halfway with a wooden ball (Sepak something, i forgot), which was cool and light, starts to fly about uncontrollably when it is kicked. interesting sport.

Leetk wanted me to submit the class’s assignment2 on integration before stuffroom closes, and while I was in the staff room, I met my former History teacher, Ms Teocm. We conversed for a while. Turns out that she’s really quite nice as an individual and as a teacher, contrary to common belief, which sometimes is a pity. I must thank her for her guidance and invaluable advice from her in this 5-6 months.

There’s always a warm feeling during evenings, especially Fridays. Not because there’s going to be a long 3 days break after today, but somehow i’ll bump into lots of people I know, maybe becos its a common CCA day?

Lastly, good luck for semis, everyone.

Next week’s gona be great too.

yahooz! english essay

1st week

Hmm, ok, so the first week ended with lots of stuff piling up. School is efficient.

We’ve already covered Integration up till trigonometry, a little bit on its implications, most of the time i don’t actually know what im writing so i’ll need some time to catch up. Yay. Organic Chemistry. hate drawing the hydrogens (that annoying H). Alkanes. Alkenes. Alcohol. Esters. AAAE.

Anyway, visited SYF’s preview in Singapore Indoor Stadium on thursday. Suprised at the extent which the place has changed. Lots of mass dances, parades involving uniform group from selected JCs and secondary schools in singapore, and cool light and sound effects. Then there were people suspended on strings and performing aerobatics. Ended with a grand finale with the campus superstar 07 winner Shawn Tok singing “forgot-the-song-name”.

And why arent our Taiwan friends coming over this year? haiz. Sometimes i’ll think of all the good times in an exchange programme. Im sure everyone misses theirs too.

Cheers for another fulfilling week ahead.

2nd day of school

I think math lessons are too fast paced. We’re already jumping into techniques of integration after 1 day of lessons. Maybe i just need more practice.

Double bio, physics, chinese, english today. The reproduction in humans is somewhat confusing to revise, nid to remember quite a lot of hormones and their names. And oh, the labeling-the-diagram-and-describe-their-functions is a killer, im bad at memorizing things.

Personally i couldnt agree more with what ms Yeo said about the 华文智多星 show. What’s its meanings if its dominated by PRC scholars and doesnt reflect the true standard of spoken chinese of locals? Somehow im proud of Hwa Chong in sending in wenhao as well. =D

English always seem so easy yet so hard. Like, this year we’re going to have a 105 minutes paper on writing 2 essays. hmm.

Oh, don’t forget to do ur Physics practicals, the one with F/N, tangents, and weights. Actually im just reminding myself. Better mug Biology as well to prepare for the coming test too.

We are going to have a treat tomorrow. IHE: Sustaining Life. movie screening of The Day After Tomorrow. Some random spoilers.

Yayz.